Im not sober

I dnt wanna b da girl who laughs da laudest or da girl who neva wanna b alone. I dnt wanna b dat call at 4'oclock in da morning.. Cuz Im da only one u knw in da world dat wont b home! Da sun z blinding, I stayed up again .. Im finding datz not da way I wanna ma story 2 end. Im safe up high, nothing cn touch me, y do I feel dat diz partyz ova?? No pain inside, u'r ma protection, bt hw do I feel diz gud sober?? I dnt wanna b da girl who has to feel in silence. De quiet scares me cause it scram da truth. Da nyte z calling n it whisperz to me "come n play" .. IM FALLIN.. n if I let maself go, Im da only one 2 blame..

Ma fucking harderz dayz

U knw what? Im so fucking tired about all diz staff.. I think I made dat shit cuz I really need tell someone dat I HAD ENOUGH! yea, I had... about every fucking thing.
Ma eyez r tired, ma body z tired, ma mind iz out of control.. diz thingz r driving me crazy..
I need to tell someone about ma painz.... 2 much pain in diz life of mine. sadnezz... here Iam